Pavlove;; I’m the invisible “girl” who can’t stop staring at the mirrorrr — I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs, But I’m afraid that someone else will hear me. You can only blame your problems on my world for so long // Before it all becomes the same old song …
Ahh, it’s been quite the day. I’m actually at peace for once; rather than my other state of a headless chicken or something along those lines of stress. Basically, I went to the gym this morn; the weights were good but the airwalker was better 
Then went out and had a lovely lunch with daddy dearest. By golly I honestly love the food of my culture; almost as much as I love my old generation iPod shuffle, Brownie, to bits. Yes, I’ve named… it. Boo you.
Anyhow, basically ( I like that word. Same with the word sporatic), I’ve got it in mind now that now is the time to lose some weight before winter. Typical of all girls; usually for all seasons. But whatever, I think I’ve got to start using my initiative again and stop being so damn food orientated.
Moving on; assessments are in 2 friggin weeks and it’s … it’s… ARGH. I have an argh moment almost everyday when I think, I panic and then I do something stupid. Or I let my emotions get the better of me. Man, I sound insane. Maybe I am? You have no idea.
Let me see… what else this week. Ah, the fight with a girl called Loretta Nguyen (yes, I said her name in public ;o. Big whoop.) It’s not really a fight seeing that all she’s doing is ignoring me. So, the story goes, her mother is apparently upset at my mother as her mother, Yen, insults everyone elses daughter and my mum just stood up for those she bags out. Anywho, after this rift, she must’ve told her daughter something nasty that I’ve apparently ( I stress the word APPARENTLY) have done to offend her. So on Tuesday, I notice Loretta, who has been quite a good friend sometimes despite her blatant rude and spoilt manner at times, well, she’s ignoring me. Obviously, my curiosity was piqued; I go over and “confront” her about it.
Q. a) Are you angry at me?
b) Why are you ignoring me.?
Her answers?
A. a) You”ll see.
b) That’s the point.
All I have to say to that is; rude bitch. Anyways, I had a hard week so I kinda broke down; much to my embarrassment mind you. Tears, the works etc. And she walked off; jubilant in my confused pain, a giant grin on her face.
It was obvious she delighted in my misery. And so they say in the song “I don’t Care” by Fall Out Boy — the rest of us find happiness in misery.
I love lyrics.
They prove to be so damn true.
Anyways, signing out; gotta go out for some business studies help cause I absolutely stink at accounting ):
Gah.
Rawrrr.
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